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Friday, September 2, 2011

I'm Ready... We're Ready

I've been thinking a lot over the past couple of months about where I want to be next year... where do I want my marriage to be? What do I want my family to look like? All my friends seem to be having babies, getting pregnant, talking about trying to get pregnant. Did I want that? I wasn't sure.

I wasn't sure because while it all seemed exciting, I was actually scared of what a pregnancy would mean. It would mean that I would have to become a *mom*. Yeah, technically I knew that but with that I started to think about all that would entail. It would never just be me and Nick... I would have this whole little life completely depending on me for everything... I don't even know what to do with a baby... Would I even be a good mom? It still scared me. All of it.

At the end of last year, a very best friend found out she was pregnant after already being 5 months along. It was a shock to us all and I can't even begin to process her emotions. Just the thought that that could happen had me running out and buying a pregnancy test. The whole time I was taking it I was praying "Don't be positive, Not now, Don't be positive". Sure enough that in itself was my sign. I wasn't ready.

Slowly, though, things began to change. I was no longer worried that it could happen. I believe the turning point happened in June when it was just about our one year anniversary. Nick and I said from the beginning that we wanted to wait at least a year. A year of just being us and being married. When that deadline was approaching it was like all of the sudden it was okay. Then each month I was secretly wishing and praying that it would happen.  I knew I was finally ready when this month I shed a few tears when I found out I wasn't.

That's how I know I am ready. I can't really speak for Nick, but I think he is too (at least he tells me he is! lol)  My husband is truly remarkable. He will be a wonderful father. I know because he has such patience with me and my crazy emotional antics. I can't wait until we start a family and I get to see him hold our baby for the first time. Just thinking about it melts my heart.

So that is where we are. Where Nick and I see ourselves and our family a year from now could possibly move us from a family of 2 to a family of 3. Eeek. That is incredibly exciting. Right now we are just praying and hoping. It will happen when and if it is meant to happen. We're ready. 



You will be a great mom and look forward to the day we have a little one of our own! :)


What exciting plans and possibilites for your family! The Lord is amazing and everything comes at the most perfect time.